Breauna L. Roach

On the Etymology of a Negro Spiritual
        – If you say someone’s engaged in ‘kumbaya,’ you’re saying that
        person isn’t serious, it’s designed to disempower someone who’s
        trying to do something.
Thomas S. De Luca, NY Times, 2010
        –How could we sing the Lord’s song in a foreign land? If I forget you,
        O Jerusalem, let my right hand wither!
Psalm 137

And here I am again
asking myself how
a Negro spiritual
about liberation
came to be a term for
naïve hopefulness
for holding the hand
that beats you
through whatever torture
they decide is coming
and even though I know
the answer to this question,
sometimes asking
helps me feel better
or more
or more
           like a quaint smile
at the use of the word to mean
a foolish compromise
even knowing always, as I have
that kumbaya
a mistranslation of come by here
           is not
an invitation for frivolous peace talks
           but an invocation
                                            to the Lord
                                 or whichever Gods
                                 with changed names
                      we had and hid
           for protection
for salvation.

What happens when you hide
your language in another tongue
‘cause you want to keep it from dying
but you realize too late that
staying alive and living
ain’t the same thing
and they catch it anyway;
take the words from your mouth
and call it
a mixed blessing
call it
call it
poor, peace loving liberal speech
call us
stupid Negros
           still waiting’ on a chariot
                      ain’t even bother to ask
                                 whose hand
                                            is whipping the horse ?

Breauna Roach

Breauna L. Roach is a native of Detroit, MI and a recipient of the Gwendolyn Brooks Writers Association’s Poetry Prize. Her work has appeared in the Detroit Institute of Art, Little Patuxent Review, The New Sound, and various other publications. She is a proud Alumna of Florida A&M University, and has received fellowships from Callaloo and Cave Canem. Breauna is the former Editor of CaKe: a Journal of Poetry and Art and is currently a Graduate Writing Instructor and MFA candidate at Emerson College.

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